Relationships

[Vipera]

just be careful long distance relationships can go bad- i tried it once. and we just fought so much it wasn't possible to be exclusive we needed space n i dunno. id say dont be exclusive but keep in touch- but thts just me- hahah im bad with boys in general woo hoo

[Vipera]

Relationships...........

Very tricky things.....
Just got out of a 2 year long distance relationship with an awesome guy. he was my everything. We got engaged the second year. And now, well now about 2 months ago he tells me he can't do it anymore. We stop talking. And I fall into this awful state of hating myself- feeling like I need a man. And I don't. I feel he has damaged me in so many ways. I can't handle the way I feel inside. it's getting better. I try. But I have dreams of hugging a man, of smelling his shirt- feeling the warm comfort of a hug. Now, I don't need a man but my soul needs something. It's difficult to handle the damage control. I tried getting over it with partying, with a guy I know (who turns out doesn't want anything else with me just that one drunk kiss), and I cannot stop thinking about that guy friend, my roommate is torturing her ex-bf who they are on and break but she's been messing around with another guy. I have no one but myself and I guess just as of now I need to make myself stronger. You cannot rely on anyone but yourself. men may come and go and so will friends. But you are your only saving grace- and I just have to get back to loving me for who I am and starting to feel normal again. It can happen, just don't know when.....................



ps- random oldie dance :bdance:

[a04]

All you can do in life is aim to be happy with yourself. Be self-dependant, and if someone comes along who enriches your daily experience, go for it. If you truly want it, some dreams will come true; others become nightmares.
And never lose sight of whats real and what isnt.

Thats all I can say.